When the old man rubbed my back
with bear fat
I dreamed the winter horses
had eaten the bark off trees
and the tails of one another.
I slept a hole into my own hunger
that once ate lard and bread
from a skillet seasoned with salt.
Fat was the light
I saw through
the eyes of the bear
three bony dogs leading men
into the grass-lined caves of sleep
to kill hunger
as it slept itself thin.
They grew fat
with the swallowed grease.
They ate even the woodashes
after the fire died
and when they slept,
did they remember back
to when they were wolves?
I am afraid of the future
as if I am the bear
turned in the stomach
of needy men
or the wolf become a dog
that will turn against itself
remembering what wilderness was
before the crack of a gun,
before the men tried to kill it
or tame it
or tried to make it love them.