Apples sweeten in the dark.
–Eavan Boland
I know she doesn’t mean
just any dark—the one breathing
even now beneath the trees
in the backyard, the one that
holds me in my sleep, the one
I think of when I say it’s getting dark
out there. I know she means
a darkness with a name. One
with intention, one colluding
with historical forces that likely
mean me harm, that are trying
to turn me into less
of a person. Not the sun going down
for seven hours, but for years;
unthinkable violence just another
row in the spreadsheet; every day
being grateful the air wasn’t poison,
that my children weren’t shot
in the head. She doesn’t mean
night,
but lately I need to read it
that way. Need to hit restart
on my Earthliness. Here, look, b
asic miracles: oxygen; the ocean;
the lunge-feeding of baleen whales;
the compound eye; seeds.
Apples
sweeten in the dark, I murmur
in January, when apples have been
eaten roughly off the map,
their branches snapped
and frost-beaten; when the dark
goes on for fifteen hours
and there are definitively no apples
to be sweetened.
But I mean
the bullet did not meet its mark
today. I mean stay with the boat.
I’m saying we’ve split sweetness into
a million names I can put into my mouth
when the annihilating curtain falls.
I can put my hand out and feel bark,
lichen, holes where the Mourning
Cloak Butterfly overwinters,
rivers of sap humming. Though
the apple is a black ball hanging
in blacker space, I’ll know its taste.
Juice between my teeth, mist
on my cheek. When I close
my eyes, darkness will not be
the only thing I see.
This poem is the winner of the 2026 Stanley Kunitz Memorial Prize.